Yes. Frustrated also, but predominately confused. I have ordered a new laptop to collect from PC World tomorrow, but I’m not sure why. I need a new laptop, for sure – my old one (despite several attempts and £100 spent on it) is of no use to me, and I’m limited to not installing anything on my parental laptop, making it equally useless, though somewhat faster. But do I need one right now? And why do I need a laptop at all? To occupy me while I stay at home home, yes. However, I don’t want to reach the end of my week’s holiday, and look back on a weeks worth of sitting indoors on any laptop – new and shiny or borrowed. New or not I’m equally likely to spend inordinate amounts of time on it, so I might as well get one I can install things on and get some work done. Getting a new one does mean breaking into a savings account I’d forgotten I had, at least until monies owed to me find their way back to me. Oh and a further irony – new laptop will have vista. Will it even run the programs I want to use?! Shiny vista, I want it because I don’t need it. Same reason I thought about getting a mac – simply to have a mac. Materialistic? Yes. Retail therapy? To some degree, yes.
So, yes. Confused.
Booking things in advance seems to help – one way the internet helps beat my tendancy to hole up, ironically. Went to see POTC3 on Monday, which is a box well ticked. Looking around my room now, plus following a “civil discussion” with padre about decluttering the loft (on the basis I was willing to search every box up there for my meccano set, came down declaring us all materialistic hoarders having not found said set, and then flatly refused to declutter up there) perhaps that could be my achievement for the week? Life decluttering?
Of course, these whims do come to me at silly-o-clock in the morning. Tis 4am and I haven’t been to sleep; got reading instead.
I need a skip.
Bleugh. How is it possible to feed proactive yet despairing at the same time? And why doesn’t this copy of Firefox have a spellcheck?
